You will win success with all you adopt.

Mit allem was du dir zu eigen machst wirst du erfolg haben.

I hit a weird turn in my road & took it!

8 years ago i went home & had to cross an intersection in my home town. I knew the life i was living was over, it just had to be, i was unwell, toxic, “polytoxic” TBT.

5 years ago the same thing happend, i did the walk of shame crossing the same intersection. again i knew that my life as it was was over.

3 years ago, i intentionally passed that intersection with a conciouss choice! I took that road willingly for the first time! Nothing was the same again. everything changed in ME! the world didnt change, i changed, i transformed over & over again

yesterday, my gramps 90 year old birthday. i went allong with an unexpected encounter. again i chose to open up & be myself knowing the consequences of my actions.

ive never had this kind of open conversation with someone very like me jet totaly oposite. the universe connected 2 conciousness & we expanded each others horizons.

i got a project offer! i want to do it & give my best applying everything i got!

The fortune cookie!

i overspend my welcoming but i had to cuss i was curious! they politely kicked me out austrian style & while we where saying goodbye they tell me. open it up on your way home.

sitting at “my crossing of destiny” i read it waiting for the buss on the road ive had never taken before_

It says:

YOU WILL WIN SUCCESS IN EVERYTHING YOU ADOPT?

my consciousness got triggered with this random truth from a specific human…
it was universally targeted to me specifically!!! noone else at that time, place & human would have gotten triggered by it!

It was specifically written for me! on “my crossing of destiny” in my mindset after that chill home party!

What does it mean for me?

it supports a truth ive always felt to be true about myself.
i need to be involved, i need to be passionate, i need to interiorize it, i need to really care & like the topic to be able to do anything with it!

i dunno what this weird ass conclusion & choice of roads will bring to me but im eager to go in fully heads on!
Life is good again after a very very long time of battling mental health & rebuilding my life & self from scratch.

i love myself & love the time ive spend last night.

It means now i said it & have to do it!

edit: (22-04-24) i literally followed my advice, unconciously! idint think about it, i just went for it did it the best i could & keept on going. i mean, my mental health the starting years of my creative career was abismal. got the idea, got the tools, got the time. cant focus on compleeting a task & constantly keeps multitasking never finishing anything. i had to use hardcore meditation & wilful self-manipulation. Like think it so hard you actually feel it! YES! THINK SO HARD!

its like a cheat, i say i do something & i do the something, no matter the degree of success. each time im faster, its easier & suddenly it turns into a flow. being creative is work these days. im not creating content anymore. im creating the platform. the solo platform. my solo platform cuss my mental twist makes me come on weird, & i come on even weirder when you have to judge my content based on what others do.

one of the things im very very worried about is my own personal security & thus the security of my users. im not afraid of leting them duke it out on their own. heated arguments eventually run out of steam.

what worries me is some greedy spammer to abuse my node to get profit off users backs. Went down to the underbelly of our lovely net & got some tools shaping the way we manage everything.

What interested me most in the darks? an email server with PGP

got some old bare metal from my BF after i helped him build a gaming desktop for less than 1000$ on amazon. i5-12500K, rtx 3060 12GB, 32GB & 2x1TB nvme. dude plays wow… breh… men & pointless machines. i mean, i can take decade old junk fit it together & get it to run anytime i want. i dont just game & stream with mine. i run the servers virtually before deploying them to metal. VPS is another history. I dont have access to the metal so the only thing i see are is a browser menu of my hosting provider.

for instance brandynette.xxx & brandynette.com run on a dual core, 4GB ram, 20GB ssd… i literally filled up my storage with the 6k blogs with short videos costing me 30€ a month. why? cuss i have root access to it. i can stop & reinstall the VPS in less than 15min including restoring the backup!

why am i technical?
cuss my OS is a techie. it what he used to do but now she does too & even waaaaaaaay better than anything ive ever lived trough. i mean, literally as a boy i was stuck developing. yeah plug the cables & boot it up but then later? when actually having to build an app from scratch? imean, boy self was good at bridging all the services over several hosts & combining the abilities of one to supplement the other but he lacked the endurance & ritualistik maintaining & creating on it.
it was like, yeah i got all the tools setup but im stuck at not being able to know what i want to create. this brandynette.xxx/blog is not the content i want to host on my site. too many ads & too little quality content.

i “have?” had? haved a webmaster helping me? i have had had a webmaster helping me called brazzballs, 6k blog posts with affiliate marketing shemes & all… do i like it?
the content is great, for free but the ads are anoying AF & pointless. who will pay for a pornsite if they are on a pornsite? i will never understand how webmasters can make money by advertising huge bloats of models while the ultimate affiliate marketeer cashes in all the earnings! MODELS SEE NOTHING OF THE AFFILIATES! Its the models who actually pay the affiliations by giving them a % most times up to 50% on each sale if they use their link. For me starting as an amateur pornstar & understanding why porn spamms the way it dose made me sick to my bussy… i was so frustrated i didnt upload im monts as i dint want to continue working with systems designed to scamm amateur modles for free content from their portfolios while blatantly stealing our content & revenue!!!

i affiliated to my CMS & their add service. In less than a week my high paying videos where being shared on free tubes for ad revenue. BUT IT WASNT ME! just some rando who blurred out my watermarks
lucky i had Pornhub DMCA . the model dept helped me out to fill in all the paperwork. know the great thing? The stolen affiliate content is now safe & secure on pornhub generating add revenue on video views!
That was 2018, later that year Pornhub gave me the pornstar status & changed my model site to a pornstar link. im literally playing porn ranked! ^^

wasnt my best idea, as a regular model i compete with models. as pornstar i compete with all registered pornstars at pornhub! imean come on im just an amateur! small amateur studio gigs. not uploaded to the net as the costar agency didnt permit me to use her content on video view tubes. they said basically that i was just a lucky porn addict who got to shoot with some pros… pros my ass… the shoot was boring, too much planing & talking & preparing & perfekting & rehearsing & repeating for my taste… i love it raw! RAW AMATEUR where the real porn faces pop up if you look in the right moment.

Why i digressed away from the moto of my blog?

cuss its exactly what i mean. i said i will adopt a porn carrer as main creative outlet!
i said i would learn the technical skills needed to do everything on my own!
i keept at it & at it & at it & at it.
i succeded. i earned my fair share from my starting shoots. i enjoyed getting my brains fuckt out on cam for everyone to see the glorious slut ive become as a female & ive learned how to create by using the tools & skills at my disposal!

I gained success with what i adopted!